Home but not rested

My weekend to Pincher Creek was very nice. I am happy with the scrapbooking that I accomplished. I am however very tired. Even though I went to bed each night at a decent hour but I didn't necessarily get a good sleep.

I am still tired today and it is Thursday. I made it to my weight class on Wednesday and did some running and walking on the treadmill before class. Today I tried to go for a run this morning but it was very disappointing. For every 2 blocks I ran I had to walk a block to recover. I seem to have no stamina or lung capacity. I think I may have to give up running for a few weeks until my body starts to heal from the damage that the chemo is doing. At least if my initial intention is to walk it won't be so disappointing when that is all I accomplish.

I have to say that today was the first day that I noticed that I look sick. My eyes are not big and bright but are glassy, tired and only half open. I look like a sick person. I don't like that.

This is supposed to be my 'good" week. By now (one week before chemo) I have rebounded and feel like a normal person. That is not happening this time. I am a bit worried about chemo next Wednesday. I don't know how much further I can get down. I can't imagine feeling like this and loading on all the other side effects as well.

Sandy leaves to Amsterdam on Saturday for a week. I have accepted help from everyone to help me get through the week. Rylie is going to my wonderful neighbours, Sandy's mom will help me with Jessica and I will program the phone with the pizza delivery number.

Love Carolin